Everything that drove me to pursue life has been flipped. Before I exchanged my all for His all I lived to protect, exalt and promote me. The old line, "what about me?" was playing in my mind all the time while I wore a sweet, kind and benevolent mask to be sure I could garner everyone's acceptance. I walked around with big holes in my soul screaming to be filled.
Now, I live in the "knowing" that God loves me; always has loved me and He has "made me alive in Christ." I know I'm not worthy for such extravagant love and mercy but in Ephesians 2..." For by grace you have been saved through faith; and that not of yourselves, it is the gift of God; not as a result of works that no one should boast. For we are His workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand, that we should walk in them.".
I fellowship with God and I lean into Him to "hear" what pleases Him. When I sense what He has in mind for me to do I work with Him to complete it. I still love it when people are pleased with me, but that is not my driving force. My supreme question in all things is "Lord, does this please You?" When my call in life from God bothers some people, I pray mercifully for them. But I no longer try to prop up my self esteem by being a people pleaser.
Compassion and mercy for others fills me in such ways I am amazed. It is truly not of my nature. When God pours His mercy and compassion in my heart I feel more pain for others than I naturally would. But to be fully alive is worth whatever pain is involved. At my age many of my peers feel life is essentially finished and it's time to settle back in a rocking chair and remember yesteryear. I've never been more alive and excited about what's next.
My life is ordered according to what I see God doing as I pray, worship, meditate on the Bible, and hear the Word of God preached with power.
What has changed since Jesus became Lord of my life? Everything and I thank God that nothing is based on anything that used to ring my bell!!!
Jesus is my Everything.